Lament | Ananya S. Guha
You say caste is a hierarchy
I say caste is a treachery
You say upper and lower
I ask are they berths in a train
You say caste fulfills a purpose
I say the purpose is not fulfilled, but the lament is.
You say caste is a hierarchy
I say caste is a treachery
You say upper and lower
I ask are they berths in a train
You say caste fulfills a purpose
I say the purpose is not fulfilled, but the lament is.
They ask me not to swear
In the name of gods or kinsfolk
I have found lost in designs drawn
By others I have heard to be behind
The torment and torture and the end
That saw me orphaned and dispossessed
To take revenge wreaking disaster for all
For whose atrocious attitudes I am what
I should have not been today had I behind
Me those structures of support and those
Ladders linking the heavens to the earth
I stand on disdained by those that have
Made me poor, lost and crying for a fate
I have been denied in the designs diabolic
Devils have maliciously made to make me
Victim to vagaries of situations over which
I am not sure now when I may have control
To answer them all for whom I am what I am
Today reasoning hard over this need to prepare
For an appropriate response even as reprehensible
Action people crudely may call revenge.
This harmony and unity
In this co-existence in peace
Is what leaves you troubled
And to end this calm and joy
In dubious devilish ways
You want to divide us all
Into armies to fight your battles
With our heads and our blood
In ignorance into which to wit
You have pushed us for ages
Knowing the colour you desire
For power dons and changes
Only one colour is capable of taking
All in its sweep and shade and
The poor and dull and fighting fools
That you are sure shall never
Gain the good fortune to read in the
Schools you have built for us with dreams
Of gold that we are taught to hold making
Our future all gold and shining
As the dead metal in a dreaded way does.
Two workers non-descript
Heads tied in kerchiefs
Sunk cheeks and stomachs
But rippling biceps under
Their sweat-stained T-shirts
Eating a cold lunch kept in
A sagging newspaper
Spread out on the dusty mound.
The daily, their provisional plate and tiffin box,
The humble fare being shared.
Perched on the freshly-dug earth,
Legs crossed, unmindful of the stares
The chatting workers eat frugal.
A barred window, building vertical
Separates the quiet voyeur
From the hardships of unsung human labour.
Over there at height, the absolute haze,
Condors and flamingos flying the escarpment,
Cordillera Vilcanota of four hundred glaciers
whose clouds are the thinking of mountains.
Snow-capped Ausangate, the tutelar spirit,
its eyes are the turquoise lagoons
that are loving the Stone Forest,
the sun writes the seasons over
the inca sundial at Intihuatana,
Elusive deers leap by black rocks
like blades that hide the cougar.
Down at the huge precipice heather covered
the mighty Urubamba is breaking its swell.
Towards Vilcabamba, sacred city of Pachacútec
the Sons of Sun go fleeing from faith
and treachery of friars, of greedy conquerors
and viceroys, all of them accomplished enemies.
The dew-morning at Cordillera, are tears…
On the peaks of almost solid mist,
The student of Garcilaso, Jesuit scholar,
clandestine reader from Rousseau and Voltaire,
survivor of the Solar Lineage exterminated,
Túpak Amaru returns to life.
With rebellion are inhabited, the peaks in November
that only slavery and domination lived in those heights.
Creoles, zambos, Indian, mestizo, both male and female
one same body and beginning, fraternity
with some aftertaste of compass, level and plumb.
The Eight Haughty Peoples rose in revolt,
the Council of Five and Túpac’s wife Micaela
formed a poorly equipped army of seven thousand,
seven thousand disinherited following
their solar Inca Tupac Amaru the second,
against the detestable tyranny and forced labour
of Indians at mercury mines and chained blacks.
Speaks the ch’anka oracle, roar of the Apurimac,
torrent river like sea. And enslaved people
rise up victorious throughout all the country.
Nevertheless they will be dominated again. Tortured,
Túpac Amaru writes messages with his blood.
He is forced to witness the atrocious executions
of his family and followers unto the fourth generation,
ordered by José Antonio de Areche, the Visitador.
badly injured, the last Inca faced death.
First, they cut off his tongue, then tie up his members
to four horses pulling in the four directions, but he dies not.
Then, bored, the Spanish barbarian
beheads and dismembers in parts, that he sends
unto all latitudes of Tiwantinsuyo to be exposed.
Adds abomination doing the same to Micaela’s body.
On the heights of love and light,
the terror stayed like a dagger, rooted in souls
as a stab, terror stays planted in souls,
a dagger that no one was strong enough to take out.
In tears, the Inca people go burning
the bloodcurdling pieces of bodies of their sovereigns
Later, their ashes and continental insurrection
were scattered, beyond time,
by royal eagles and crowned hawks.
And you resurrect, again and again, son of the Sun,
Tupac Amaru Inka, in Uruguay, Argentina and Chile.
In Ecuador, Bolivia, Colombia and Venezuela,
to set fire at American freedom.
The end.
They all wanted to be good.
It strikes me that about desire.
That the lovers incessantly express
after all indecision
troubadours of nightmares and sorrows
under all lunar and terrestrial shadows,
They all wore their lamps working on hands
clean or dirty, bloody or diaphanous,
murderous poetries
of hatred and misunderstanding
or tender feathers of hope,
like canals channeling the torn sails
in the improbable boats of miserable dreams.
They all wanted one day be the best
Was the hope of open and pale childhoods
shot to death, leafless, and in despite of all,
with the arrow of sun still between their fingers,
they all continue to follow that mystery
persisting in the open estuary
before devouring ocean surf
millenary like the immortal desperation
of so many empty wishes,
with no place in the infamous present
doomed to death, consumed
into the flames of any local crematory,
on the lips of a mother
who failed to maintain the immortal flame,
or on the seals of national loan bonds,
such as lullaby to empty cradles.
Everyone wanted to conquer evil
forgetting that good is not absolute,
forgetting the pains of Icarus and Apollo,
but we all wanted to be good,
forgetting that perfect good is inhuman.
This is how we build The Hell!
Cut the seas
figurehead,
run ominous waves! …
Shew us
new damned reefs,
coral of human vermilion
loaded with chunks of rails
the ruthless sowed
on the high seas.
The Pacific roars its distress
rises to sky its monstrous waves,
as arms that last rocked
agonizing bagged bodies
on the innocent cradle of sea …
But they fall not silent,
not die neither rest.
Badly wounded,
this waning boat
go aimlessly.
Badly wounded,
ardent bow figurehead …
Let these trying times be over
And we shall find our true selves
Once again that in shame and shackles
We seemed to be fast losing away
When the world arrayed against us
In its own fabricated lies it told
To make people close to us buy
Versions they packed in nonsense
In their own crooked designs
Ignoring propriety, piety and
Patient indulgence to press us into
Hard anguish and deep mental shock
At a time we thought the time
Was ripe and we could live by
The years of labour we had put in
With the fruits they had borne.
Now please tell us if any other
Way could there for us be left
That we would choose and pursue
To give us all that we by all counts
Deserve and them all that we like
To grant them forgetting what mighty
Harm they planned to inflict on us to
Smother our dreams and murder us
Much before any of progenies proper
We could think of transferring our
Hard-earned claims to fortune and living
By way of lawful inheritance in grace
Without bloodshed and rancour
In saving and uniting forgiveness
Soaked in consummate cordiality
And gripping compassion.
Ignored in ways conceived by crooks only
these mighty masters building others’ fortunes
have never tried to stop and ask
if their own destinies could in definite ways
be given certain shape and design
through their own passionate and dedicated involvement
as marked in their generous contributions
in all these magnificent instances in raising
which they have never got time to bother
if with their own co-operative labour
capital could be commanded to create for them
the kind of destiny they themselves would desire
and that bit of ignorance to mind
their own security in times when youth
and energy vanish and for hard times and rough weather
nothing is left for their creative hard years
of labouring youth and friends by then should be long lost
all falling casualty to same circumstances
of betrayal by those whose prestige, property,
power, position and pride are all but their zealous creations
the shine and glory of which keeps them away
at a distance they are now unable even to measure
with their weakened eyes and powerless knees and elbows
once upon a time which used to be the sure sources
of their strength and the cause for others
to flatter them for their own uses in selfish ways.
I live under a Chinese-made bridge in the city
Unconcerned about the cracks of life in its walls
Many years ago, before the crackdown of mushroom
Houses, in city places like Sodom and Gomorrah where
I used to live; my body would have rested on pure
Rubbish-like mats woven by Hausa women
In my new little ghetto, the road is always playing
Music as the speed of the cars raps a tsweee
And tshiooo sounds that mix together to form a song
In my past life, I should have been dancing adowa
To the beats, with friends like Zig and Zag, whom since
The demolishing, we have yet to meet
Only yesterday, a heavy-duty truck loaded with huge timbers,
I guess from the forest of the north disrupted my dance
When the driver went high on the amplifiers of the break
And killed a pregnant woman making way to the zebra crossing
I was the only witness who rushed to the scene when the
Incident happened in the early hours of the morning while
The driver sped on and some men in uniform arrived at the
Scene only to handcuff me without asking any question
Today, today, see me, whoever is reading this poem, as I
Am lying in this smelly closet with this guard in a faded brown
Uniform who tells me every now and then to prepare for my death