If Only | Chris Byrne
I walked
Forgot the pain
I felt, just there
Shock, my heart
Died, all sense
Left me, broken
Unable to talk
It killed me
No one noticed
Or saw my
Heartache
It will
Always be
There.
I walked
Forgot the pain
I felt, just there
Shock, my heart
Died, all sense
Left me, broken
Unable to talk
It killed me
No one noticed
Or saw my
Heartache
It will
Always be
There.
Eating alone puts me in
a self-conscious mood,
every bite I take,
every spill I make,
feeling hundreds of eyes
staring at my attempts to
appear as if my unaccompanied
dining event is a once-in-a-while
circumstance.
Reading the newspaper provides
a fortress for lonely feelings,
occasionally I peek from behind
the printed wall as I watch other
diners who share intimate glances,
laughter and coupleness.
He can vividly remember so many
of the conversations
which took place
walking these three streets
over to the shops and back again.
Sometimes he would simply listen
intently or distractedly
to the house sparrow chatter
flying musically from her mouth
and punching pretty holes in the sky
around her smiling face.
But that was another time…
a ‘Yesterday’ now tangibly dissolved
into sigh-inducing memory.
Although when he closes his eyes
and quiets his yearning mind
for but a moment,
it feels almost as if he could
still reach out a trembling hand
and touch her warmth once more.
Yet, it is an action and gamble
far too great and important to take.
So instead, he settles for whistling
one of her many favourite songs,
as he opens the door
with a still beating heart built for two
but a shopping bag
carrying only enough vittles for one.
More at https://paultristram.blogspot.co.uk/.
what’s going to happen
tomorrow at work
what will people
think about my project
does anybody care
am i just someone
walking through
an apparition no one
sees and thus cannot
care about
do i matter in any way
will i fail miserably
will i be able to
make it through the day
O homeless moon!
I love the way you shine!
I’ll catch thee soon
And make you mine!
O homeless moon!
You aren’t alone!
I’ll be with you
Till the dawn!
My life is like a tunnel and I’m searching for an end. Walking in the darkness alone without a friend. Looking for an answer, searching for some light. I cant escape the misery. There’s no relief in sight.