I notice the bird taking a sip of water.
The lilac just beginning to bloom.
The blue sky.
The door closing.
You clearing your throat.
You taking a walk with your wife, social distancing always in vogue.
The anger in your eyes.
Your wife in her illusion of strength.
My anger.
The bird sitting on the fence.
I found out the hard way
That if I went against what he said
I would find myself fighting
A battle for my life, ostracized,
Belittled, slandered by someone
Who didn’t really care about me,
Only about preserving his own status,
Keeping the secret hidden about
How he really is, and doing anything
To make sure everyone sides with him
And nobody ever knows the truth.
So I find myself shunned but
Grateful that I finally get to live
My own life, away from
All that horribleness,
Choosing my own path and
Who I spend time with,
Not doing the things he does,
Being a better person than
He wants me to be.
All those things you said to me that
Weren’t true, I wish you had just
Kept your mouth shut instead of
Confusing me, leading me on,
Making me think something more
Was going on than realistically was.
Words can sound so good but
I found out they can’t always be
Trusted, or believed, if they’re
Coming from someone like you,
The person I thought I could trust
More than anyone in the world.
I’ve tried to tell you
But you won’t listen,
That’s the way you are,
You say what you want to say
And nobody else’s opinion matters.
I see your face shut down,
How hard you become when
You close your heart and
Block out all the sunlight,
Hanging on to the illusion of control.
I’m getting tired of this pathetic
Behavior, there’s more to life
Than trying to get along with
Someone who doesn’t know
How to be anything but difficult.