I want to get my old life back
want-need-love-hate-feel sad
doesn’t diminish my unrest
I just want to get my old life back
no reading, drawing or writing
no reichian breathing, meditation
can move the needle backwards
I sincerely want my old life back
I made peace with the remedies
designed to seem rather than be
what I have is not what I did have
I still dream that my old life is back.
inside everyone is a compleat person
seeking to penetrate a fortress of lies
too many right answers are out there
set on protecting the ammo of attacks
I’ve seen the struggles end either way
breaking away is a noble adventure
freeing a life from solitary-voluntary
along a painful tearful meandering path
new discoveries always worth the wait
The lost hilly traveller unwinds into bedazzling fields,
Woven inside wept wolves and cat mien,
And the sodden sides of a green mind
Fellow fawns with watery beer studded
Drunk hostesses—
Here, under stars, a mortal wolf
Show-reels steeds where blue dodderers
Claim candy crowns from
Dizzy wives whose yelping
Shoots the scars of bound
Bully bums…
We may well marvel at renascence art and we shall
Interline garlands with lineaments of skulls
And we may well unravel for heeled
Evil dells in muted midnight wards,
But, o, as gritted cuts drape dram-loaded dolls
Then a mighty knighted trainyard
Lays blue waste to Peace?
Underneath focal gardens, balls
Dance, dance
Forever- and steely swarming diamonds
Suffer suns as starry signs
Stop flown flowers…
uh…amen
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On this grey November afternoon
Carson’s whisper pierces my soul
The heart is truly a lonely hunter
Unexalted, unadorned, longing
An inescapable loving message
How we are each bound to each
By original divine connections
Dark outline of
Massive building.
I see things
Others don’t.
I understand what
They don’t want me to.
Each time I look in
They turn away.
Two windows,
Dual lives.
I softly lay my lips on yours
Maybe love
I hold you within in my heart
In my soul
Every season
Maybe love
Dear
With a simple look
You took my breath away
I don”t know
I cry like a child